It's my birthday month and I am growing one more year wiser.
Today I sit and look back. Last two years were a rollercoaster.
Somethings I left behind. I did some travel. I tasted some bitterness. I tried climbing cliffs differently crisscross zigzag. Then there was that flash light at the end of the tunnel. Miracles do happen and it happened with me. I wonder how but! Life is now cherry blossom. I have purpose. Its quite meaningful. I ain't no quit!
Back then I was no exception from workplace bullying. But as Tina Fey says "as long as it doesn't come between me and what I want to do in my life, I moved on".
I think I fought. Fought every bit of it till what I could. Be it when my efforts were underrated. Or when there was favour, insanity, chaos, hatredness. I was victim. Monsters inside me asked me to quit - when I was asked to walk out, when I was called intelligent but not smart, when I was working hard, when I was expected to spend time in "you know what I mean", when I was compared, when I was considered as an average mediocre, when false was talked, when conspiracies were made, when lies were told.
I Resist. Spoke. Grew up in Career. I stood as a rebel. But that was not it! I had to give answers. Answers to my own inner conscious. I had to stand out. I ain't no quit!!! Thus, I just left some things behind.
Now I feel I was smart enough to see varieties in life aftermath. I was smart enough to challenge myself with satisfaction. I was smart enough to be odd. I was smart enough to lower my blood pressure. I was smart enough to stand as a rebel. I was smart enough to have some me time some family time. Gods were watching. Omens were blessing.
My priorities are different now. I chose a career anchor against the evens. I prove no one. I feel no regrets. I am in my Madness. Struggle. Freedom. Peace. Away from negativity.
I will rebuck and walk towards the destiny but slowly. I will roar like lioness, fly like pheonix but slowly. I will grin smile laugh loudly but slowly. I ain't no quit!!! 😀
